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(kathyseroticstories@yahoo.co.uk) *** The continuation of My Humiliation, I tell of the death of my husband Jimmy, the birth of my baby, who was conceived during my multiple rape at Moses party, my lesbian experiences with Jimmie's sister Jessie, and the visit from my father, which culminates in his incestuous rape of my body. (FF, inc, nc, rp, 1st) *** Jimmy was beginning to realise he had gone to far with me; not only was I refusing to take part in any of his perversions with Moses, or any of the other men he occasionally brought home; but I was refusing him sex too; even though he sometimes beat me and raped me, I would just lie there like a corps; very off putting for him. I tried everything I could to get my children out of care; I even went to see my Member of Parliament. When he saw the documentation provided by the welfare people describing my so called suicide attempt, and promiscuity, he apologised and said he was afraid there was nothing he could do to help me. This was enough to really make me contemplate suicide. My nerves were shattered because of the strain I was under, so the doctor prescribed medication for me; I honestly think this did more harm than good. Moses sometimes came round to the house while Jimmy was out; often he tried to get me into bed, but I refused; he even tried telling me that. "A good, shag would do you good; Kathy, it's what you need; my big black cock stuffed up you will make you cum and relieve all your tension." He didn't know that I had never had an orgasm during sex; I only ever came when I played with myself. When I was eight months pregnant Jimmy had his accident. The police; came to the house one night. "Are you Kathy S..., wife of Jimmy S...?" Nervously I told them I was; I found it was never a good omen when police turned up at the house. "Can we come inside?" I stepped back to allow them into the room; all sorts of things racing through my mind. "What was wrong; was Jimmy in trouble; were my children alright; was it something to do with my mom or dad?" "I think you should sit down Mrs. S..., we have some bad news for you." Shaking; I crossed the room and sat at the table; the police officer continued. "We believe your husband James S...; has been involved in an accident from which he has died from the injuries he received." It was difficult to comprehend what the police man was saying. "W-what happened?" I stammered. "W-what's happened to Jimmy?" "We believe your husband was drunk; according to eye witnesses; it seems that he staggered from the pavement into the road and was hit by a bus." I began to cry and giggle uncontrollably; I heard the police man's voice. "Do you understand what we are telling you Mrs. S...; your husband has been killed; he's dead?" I heard my own voice asking. "Did he suffer; was he in pain; was it quick for him?" "I don't know; I honestly can't tell you." replied the cop. "I hope he did; I hope he died in agony; I hope the bastard suffered as much as he's made me suffer." The two officers looked at me; then exchanged glances; one said. "Your upset Mrs. S..., it's a lot to take in; do you have someone who can stay with you?" I was still rambling. "Do you have any relatives; friends; maybe; or your neighbour's?" Just then there was a knock at the door, one of the cops opened it and in stepped Jessie. After explaining that she was Jimmie's sister; and my sister in law: The police men told me. "You must go to the morgue tomorrow; so as to identify Jimmie's body." Then they left. Jess and I spent an hour or so talking about Jimmy; she told me that a couple of his friends had been to the family home; they had told her mother and her about Jimmie's death. "I know he's been a bastard to you Kathy; but he didn't deserve to die like that." I laughed; "What do you know; do you know what the evil cunt made me do with all those men; I bet you didn't know that he made me fuck Paul on his birthday; did you?" Jess looked shocked. "You and your fucking family didn't care when he beat me up and forced me to shag hundreds of other men for money either; did you?" She sat open mouthed listening to my tirade. "You all blamed me because the kids were put in care; none of you even asked me why; did you; not that any of you gave a fuck about me?" I mentioned in pt3 of my story that Jimmie's family were all against me and didn't like me; I also said that this was not strictly true. Unbeknown to me there was one member of his family; apart from Paul, who did like me; "his sister Jessie." In fact it turned out that she was bisexual, and that she had fancied me for a long time. Jess began to weep. "That's not true; I care about you Kathy; I always cared about you; if I had said anything my mom would have gone mad." She made us both a cup of tea and gave me a couple of pills. "Here Kathy take these; they will calm your nerves and help you sleep." After the tea and pills I felt drowsy and said I was going to bed. "I'll stop here with you tonight Kathy; is it ok if I use the kids room?" Without answering I went upstairs to bed; I must have been extremely tired, because as soon as my head hit the pillow I was asleep. I must have been dreaming: I felt an enormous sense of arousal: I was being gently kissed on my lips; not the way Jimmy kissed me, or any other man for that matter. But softly: with warmth and passion. My breasts were being stroked and needed; fingers were rolling and gently squeezing my nipples. I seemed to be drifting in and out of consciousness: there was a tremendous feeling between my legs; it was as though someone was licking my pussy; I could feel the warmth of breath on my vagina; a tongue lapped inside me; then stroked back and forth over my clit a few times. I could sense my hips gyrating as the tongue brought me to a mind shattering orgasm; my whole body shook until I lost consciousness again. I was awakened by Jess and a hot cup of tea. "How are you feeling this morning?" she asked; her face flushed by a soft rosy colour. "OK I think; I had this weird dream; it was like someone was making love to me; I had this wonderful feeling in my pussy; but it wasn't a cock; I had the most fantastic climax. At least I think I did; I never felt anything like it before." Jess smiled. "You better get up; we have to go to the morgue to identify Jimmy: then; we must see what mom wants to do about his funeral. I drank the tea then climbed out of bed and began to undress; funny; I went to bed fully clothed last night as I was so tired; but now I don't have my knickers on. After washing and dressing in clean clothes; Jess and I caught a bus into town and headed for the mortuary, it was about 11am when we arrived and after a few formalities; I was asked into a room where there was a sort of table with what looked like a body lying on it covered by a sheet. There was a police man and a mortuary attendant present, besides myself; Jess had been asked to wait out in the corridor. The police man asked me if I was ready and I nodded; "Yes:" The attendant then pulled down the sheet covering Jimmie's face; he looked different; gone was the permanent scowl he always seemed to have on his face; in it's place was the image of an innocent young man who had passed away in the prime of his life. I was taken by surprise; there were no marks at all; not even a scratch. "Do you recognise this man; miss?" "Yes." I replied to the police man's question. "He is my husband Jimmy." Jess and I left the building and caught a bus; we had to go and see my mother in law; something I wasn't looking forward too at all. "Not a scratch; not one single fucking scratch; all the pain and suffering he put me through; and the bastard goes out like a light." I muttered to no one in particular. The doctor's report had said that when Jimmy was hit by the bus, he had been knocked to the ground and hit his head on the road; it turned out the bus was hardly moving and had caused no injuries whatsoever to Jimmie's body. The fucking evil bastard had died instantly from banging his head on the road. "Why couldn't the cunt have suffered like I have; I wish he'd lingered on for months in agony, I could have watched and took the piss out of him." "Kathy; you don't mean that; it's a cruel thing to say?" Jess was shocked by what I said about her brother and began crying The first thing Jimmie's mom said when I entered the house was. "Did he have insurance; how much?" As I tried to answer she interrupted. "He's your husband; it's your responsibility to pay for the funeral; if there's no insurance don't come to me, I've no money." Eventually, I explained that there was enough money to bury Jimmy; with a little left over. "It should be shared out; Jimmy would want all his family to benefit from it; how much is left?" I was angry with her; and for the first time ever I snapped back at her. "Whatever money is left it's for me and my kids." "Fuck you and his family; you all treated me like shit; tell me; what did any of you ever do for us?" The people in the house were stunned; Jess sat open mouthed gawping at me; my mother in law turned crimson and began to sweat profusely; as she tried to think up an answer she just stammered her words. I had the upper hand at last and laid into her again. "You call yourselves a family; that's crap you're just a load of animals; you all knew what Jimmy was doing to me; making me have sex with all his mates for money; what did any of you do to help me?" I'll tell you. "Nothing; sweet fuck all; the worst thing I ever did was to get mixed up with your poxy family." As I left the house I threw back. "Another thing; you'll not get to see the grandchildren either." I went ahead and arranged the funeral myself, seeing as how his mother wanted nothing to do with it now I had made it clear she was getting nothing out of it. Although I had the insurance money I ordered the cheapest of everything; and to be honest it showed. On the day of the funeral there were several nasty comments; such as. "Co-op job, cut price crap, cheep shit?" And so on; none of them actually directed at me. I had only ordered a hearse for Jimmy and one limousine for the kids and me; they had been allowed out of care with a social worker to attend their father's funeral; the rest of his family were left to make their own way to the Crematorium. My own parents were conspicuous by their absence. I could hear my mother in law complaining that Jimmy always said he wanted to be buried, not cremated: I turned on her and snarled. "In that case, you should have drowned the bastard as a child and buried him years ago." She sat staring at me open mouthed and burst into tears. After the service I left immediately with my children and the social worker; who incidentally was very kind and considerate towards us; my children knew her well and seemed to like her very much. We went back to my house where I made a few sandwiches and tea; the social worker had brought cakes with her when she first came with the kids. While chatting she asked me. "Kathy; I'm not trying to interfere, but what are you going to do now?" I thought for a moment and replied. "I don't really know; get a job I suppose." she continued. "You strike me as quite an intelligent young woman; why not try and get back into adult education; get some qualifications behind you and find yourself a worthwhile job?" At the time I never thought much about what she said. The rest of Jimmie's family and friends went to the pub; from what I later heard most of them were pissed and causing trouble. I spent a wonderful couple of hours with my children, playing and telling stories before the social worker regrettably informed me that they would have to leave. After kissing the children and saying our goodbyes; I settled down with a cup of tea and thought about my life. I had never been a very happy child, probably due to the strict regime my parents imposed on me. Although I had many friends, I never really had anyone who was very close: It seemed they all let me down in some way or another. My relationship with Jimmy had been a total disaster; I had fallen for his mind control games to a point where my life was no longer my own. Now I was on my own; Jimmy was gone; I had lost my children, although I still saw them regularly; and I was still disowned by my own parents. "Kathy; you've got your life back, it's up to you to choose the way you live it." Or so I thought. That evening Jess dropped by; I had somehow warmed to her even though she was part of the family of horrors; as I now saw them. Jess had brought a couple of bottles of wine, so we set about drinking them. She filled me in about the goings on at the pub, the fighting and the police being called. Reluctantly; after a lot of persuasion; she told me what people had been saying about me. "I was a slag; a whore; an unfit mother; a prostitute who had ruined Jimmie's life." Funny how everyone that knows the truth; sees it in a different light after a few drinks. Jess said. "There was a collection for you in the pub, but after mum had finished running you down about the funeral it was given to her instead; it came to £107." I laughed and told her it was ok. "I don't want their fucking money anyway." Jess asked to stay the night and said she would sleep in the kid's room; after the wine and long day, I drifted off to sleep quite easily. Again I was dreaming; the same sort of dream as before; I was in complete arousal; someone was kissing me gently; my tits were being caressed, I could feel my nipples, solid; I moaned. The lips attached to mine disappeared; the hands on my breasts removed; I awoke. "Je...ss, Jess, what are you doing to me?" "Oh god Kathy; I'm sorry; I...I...couldn't help it; I...I love you, I thought you were asleep." she began to sob. "W as it you the last time; d...did you touch me when you stayed over before?" Jess answered sheepishly. "Yes Kathy; I gave you sleeping tablets, I know I shouldn't have; I didn't have any this time so you woke up; I'm sorry." I reached out with my arm and pulled her to me and cuddled her. "It's ok Jess, don't cry, I thought I had dreamed it all; I wasn't sure if I had really had that fantastic climax or not." As we talked Jess crawled into my bed and we held each other tight; we exchanged a few kisses, I thought how soft and tender her lips were compared to men. I felt a hand on my breast again, she was rolling my nipple between her finger and thumb; I returned the favour by cupping and gently squeezing her tit. There was an intense sexual chemistry between us; I felt her hand parting my legs; she slid it up my thighs and stroked my pussy through the thin fabric of my knickers; I raised my bottom off the bed so she could remove them. Her fingers delved into my cunt; one; two; she was massaging my clit; "Oh god, such pleasure." I put my hand gingerly between her thighs; no pants to obstruct my fingers as I slipped them inside her; she was so tight and wet; as I massaged her clit with my thumb she trapped my hand in a vice like grip when she closed her thighs tightly; her orgasm was loud. "Agh...oh god; I'm coming; oooh, agh! My fanny's on fire; don't stop, oh please don't stop." After she had calmed down she kissed me passionately, then slid down the bed and between my open thighs; I felt her hot breath on my vagina; using her fingers she prized open my outer lips; her tongue licked me from my bottom to my clit; the sensation was electrifying; she repeated over and over, until her long tongue slipped inside my hole and licked me to a fantastic climax. We had a couple of repeat performances throughout the night. When we woke we talked; I'm sorry Jess, we shouldn't have done it; I don't know why I let you do it to me. "I.I. I'm not a queer; I've never been with a woman before." Jess replied indignantly. "I'm not a fucking queer either: I've got a boyfriend and I love his cock; it's just that I like girls too; girls are soft and tender, their bits are smooth and fine; not hard and rough like a mans." I had to agree with her there; although she was my only female sex partner, I knew there was no comparison to the many men that had fucked and used my body for their sole pleasure. Two weeks after Jimmie's funeral I went into hospital where I gave birth to my baby; a boy; just as I had feared the baby turned out to be black; the product of one of those animals who had repeatedly raped me at Moses party. The welfare people came to the hospital to see me; they were asking me all sorts of questions. "Do you know who the father is; are you still in contact with him?" I tried to explain that I had been raped by several black men but they ignored my explanations. "How come your other children are white; have you taken up with a coloured man?" They went on to tell me that due to my past medical, promiscuous and psychiatric history, the baby would have to be taken into care also for his own protection. "What psychiatric history; I don't have one?" "Your attempted suicide," Came, the curt reply. I asked about adoption; still trying to get the message across that the baby was the result of my being raped. After all the formalities of form signing the baby was taken away from me; to be honest; I didn't feel any maternal instincts at all towards the child; probably due to the circumstances in which he was conceived. When I went to use the toilet, I overheard the two welfare women talking to a doctor and nurse; through the partly open outer door of the toilet I heard a voice. "There's too much of it going on; far too many young white girls going with blacks; getting pregnant and dumping the results on society." someone else replied. "Enoch Powel was right; the government let too many of them into the country." The doctor must have spoken next because it was a male voice I heard. "You mark my words; in a hundred years or so there won't be any white babies born in England; they'll all be pickaniny mongrels." I couldn't help myself; I erupted into fits of laughter and left the toilet under the withering glare of those speaking. I managed to find myself a job in a factory assembling bicycles; the money was good as I was on piece work, "In those days most people used bikes." I was managing to pay the rent on the house along with other bills. Things were ticking over nicely apart from a few of Jimmie's friends hitting on me, pestering me for sex; I wasn't interested in any of them and there was no way I would sleep with them. Besides I had the occasional visit from Jess; I felt I no longer needed a man in my life; Jess was more than enough to satisfy me sexually. At last everything was good for me; I even had weekend visits from my kid's. A little over a year later I had a visit from my father; I was very surprised because both he and my mother still wanted nothing to do with me; I had tried on many occasions to make peace with them, without success. When I answered the door dad just barged in past me. "To what do I owe this visit?" I asked haughtily. "Your out; Mrs. Roberts wants you out of the house by the weekend." His voice sounded slurred as if he was drunk. "Mrs. Roberts knows what's been going on between you and that other whore; as if you hadn't had enough with your fucking good for nothing husband; now you're a lesbian like his filthy sister." I was shocked; not just by his tirade at me; more by how he found out about Jess and me. "Yes everybody knows; that fucker she's engaged to told every cunt at work." It turned out that Jessie's fiancé had a fantasy of watching her have sex with another woman; when she'd had a few drinks one night she told him about us and our little affair. Being the mouthy bastard he was, he told some of his friend's at work, they in turn told others and it spread like wildfire. It just so happened that my dad worked at the same place and was also told. He wouldn't listen to my lame explanations. "Mrs. Roberts knows, her grandson told her; now she wants you out." He lunged forward grabbing me by my upper arms; shaking me like a rag doll. "How can you keep on humiliating your mother and me like this?" He had his face close to mine; there was a wild look in his eyes, and I could smell the drink on his breath. I was absolutely terrified; I had never seen my father so angry in all my life. Throughout all my troubles with Jimmy; my father knew all the disgusting things I had been forced to participate in; he had never behaved like this. Admittedly he had been angry and upset, and he had always made it clear to me that he was ashamed of my activities; and so no longer considered me to be his daughter. He was forcing me backwards, onto the couch; I felt myself lying, stretched flat on my back along its length; I could still hear him ranting. "Everybody; every, single, fucking, body in the neighbourhood has fucked you; they call you the bike; have you any idea how this makes your mother and me feel?" He was foaming at the mouth. I was crying; my whole body was quivering with fear. I tried to plead with him but I was so scared that whatever I was trying to say came out garbled. He was trying to kiss me; his slobbery lips crushing down on mine; his tongue trying to force its way into my mouth; I tried to struggle and scream but to no avail. He held my hands above my head with his one hand; the other was alternately fondling and squeezing my tits quite roughly. My blouse was wrenched open pulling off the buttons; he dragged my bra up to my neck freeing my breasts; all the time he still verbally abused me. "You little slut; they say your cunts an ever open door; you like cock so much you let anyone up your hole." "No daddy please; I'm sorry." He now had my right tit in his mouth; sucking viciously and biting my nipple so hard I thought he would bite it off. My skirt was round my waist; he was fumbling with his fly buttons. "Daddy stop; you can't do this I'm your daughter; please it's all wrong." I could feel his hard prick pressing into my thigh; there was wetness from his pre-cum. Now he had a hold on my knickers pulling at them hard, twisting and tearing them till he had them off. My right leg was forced up onto the back rest of the couch. "You dirty whore; you shagged all those men; even niggers; you let them black bastards shoot their filthy spunk up you and had a black enamel bastard of your own." He was on top of me; probing for the entrance to my hole. "Oh god no; p...lease your my father; you mustn't do this." More pushing and probing, he adjusted his angle. "N...o, Stop, take it out; p...lease daddy, get off me; pull your cock out your not wearing a Johnnie." He was thrusting into me like a mad man. It was as though he hadn't shagged anyone for years: grunting and panting. "Fuck condoms; everybody else stuffs you without them; I'm coming inside you same as all the others; at least my kid wont be a pickaniny." No matter how much pleading and begging I did, he carried on riding me until he ejaculated. "Agh, oh god, I'm coming... oh... Kathy; I love you." I felt his penis jerking inside me; the sloppiness as he kept on fucking me until he lost his erection, after a while his prick came out of me with a plop; followed by a copious amount of his spunk. I lay there sobbing as he eventually lifted himself off me. "How could you; I'm your daughter; after all you said to me you raped me? Why?" He sat at the kitchen table, ashen faced; his dick still protruding from his fly; surrounded by gobs of spunk that showed up against the Navy Blue of his trousers. He was silent for a moment. "Kathy I'm so sorry; I'm sorry for everything, I shouldn't have been so unkind to you; I love you, I always have." "You had a funny way of showing it; ever since I first met Jimmy you've treated me like shit." He raised his head and looked at me. "I know; I wanted to hurt you like you were hurting me; I was jealous." I went upstairs to get cleaned up and re-dressed; when I returned downstairs he was still sitting there with his cock hanging out. "I should report this to the police; you raped me; your own daughter; suppose I get pregnant?" I was shocked by his answer. "I want you to; I want you to have my baby; I told you I loved you Kathy. I've always wanted to make love to you since you were little." I felt sick to my stomach. "Your disgusting; you're a pervert; what's mom going to say when I tell her what you've done to me?" He was startled by my outburst. "No...; no you can't; please Kathy don't say anything to her; it'll kill her." looking at him as he sank in his chair he was pathetic, I actually felt sorry for him as he cried like a baby. We began to talk to each other as a father and daughter should, without malice. I explained to him all the things that had happened to me these past few years. The way Jimmy had forced me to take part in all his disgusting fantasies, my enforced life of prostitution, all the rapes and beatings I had suffered at the hands of my husband and his so called friends. The anguish: of my lovely children being taken into care. The only happiness I had in years with Jess. "I'm not a lesbian daddy; it's just that I needed to be loved; no one wanted me and Jess was there in my hour of need after Jimmy died." this was very true, Jess and I just provided each other with sexual relief. I poured my heart out to him. My father went on to tell me of his jealousy when I took up with Jimmy; of the sexual feelings that he had harboured for me ever since I was a child. He took great pains in convincing me that he had no feelings for other children; I believed him. He said it broke his heart the way he had treated me; all the names he had called me, and the insults he threw at me. He had tried so many times to get in touch, but had found it impossible to make the initial contact; his selfish pride just wouldn't allow it. The longer we were apart, the more difficult it became for him; in the end it had turned him into a bitter and twisted man I told my father he should leave; to be honest we were both becoming a little emotional. As he got to his feet I said with a grin. "You better put your cock away first; you don't want to get nicked for flashing." He looked down to his crotch red faced; he hadn't realised his tool was still hanging out. When he was leaving I asked. "Is there anything you can do with Mrs. Roberts; can you talk her into letting me stay?" He looked at me with a sorry expression. "I'll try" I couldn't bring myself to report my dad to the police for raping me; neither did I have the heart to tell my mother, I knew if she ever found out it would destroy her. From that day onwards the relationship between my father, and eventually my mother and I: improved for the better. What my father did to me was never mentioned by either of us again. *** If any of my readers would like to send feedback on my stories, it would be very much appreciated. Without such feedback, an author has no idea if he/she, is writing well enough to keep their audience interest in their work. Even criticism is better than no comment at all from readers. Kathy S. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ This story was written as an adult fantasy. The author does not condone the described behavior in real life. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Kristen's collection - Directory 43