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Thank you for your consideration. -------------------------------------------------------- Conversations with Martin Part One (M/m-teen, exh, reluc, mc, huml) by dale10 (maipenraikhap@msn.com) *** The slow methodical destruction of a teenage boy. *** The following entries are excerpts from Internet conversations via messenger that I had with a 16-year- old boy named Martin. The game is still progressing. dale10: Martin, I am so very glad that you answered my message about sharing ideas and attitudes as to being gay with teenagers. Too many teens have to place to turn and no one in whom they can confide. The fact that you have no father and that your mom is gone a lot must make it terribly hard on you. First of all, let me say the loneliness and isolation you say you feel at school is very common among boys who feel they might be gay. I have many friends in your city and hope to be able to find others with whom you can communicate to give you some sense of belonging. First though I have to ask a peculiar favor from you. I have to know that I can trust you as the Internet is full of spies and guys who fake ids to trap people like me. So if you could be so kind, please send me some photos, a current photo of you and one from you a few years ago, at school say...something natural maybe with other people so I know its really you. I hate to do this, but I have to be careful. I know that I can help you sort out your sexual and social confusion. After all I have been there myself. your new friend dale Martin: Thank you so much for being so kind and understanding. Geez, nobody every talked to me like that before. I feel better already. Sometimes I felt so damned alone, you know? I have so many questions, and so much I need to learn. I am not sure if I am gay or not. I mean, I always thought I liked girls, but now I know that I also think about guys, like the jocks at my school a whole lot, and sometimes it gets me excited. I think about them fucking the girls in my school, and that's how I get off. I have never had any kind of sex with anyone else. Here is a 7th grade pic of me as well as a current one and a pic of my 8th grade soccer team. I hope that proves I am real. I trust you and want to share all with you. Thank you so much sir. Martin. Dale10: Well, I must say, you are a very handsome young man Martin. Someday some lucky girl or boy will have a fine partner in you, and you can be proud of yourself. Now Martin in order to determine if you are gay or straight and if you are normal sexually or have some physical or chemical or mental imbalance (mind you, I am not saying you do, but I have find out) I want to ask you a list of simple questions, some social, some sexual. If you just answer them next to the questions and send the questionnaire back to me, that will be fine. Now don't be shy, you have to trust me if I am going to help you. And no one else will ever see any of this I promise you. Martin: Here are the answers to your questions Dale, and I have to admit, I felt really funny answering some of them, but I did the best I could. Some of them were very embarrassing, but I guess I have to trust somebody sometime. Thanks for saying I am good looking, I never thought I was. I think I'm kind of geeky looking. I am having more and more sex thoughts since I started to write to you, I don't know why. Questions for Martin: 1. How old are you? 16 2. What are your grades in school like? 3.5 average. I do ok. I hate math, but do really well in English Lit. 3. What are your hobbies? Movies, the Internet, music, reading. 4. Sports? I'm not into sports much. Playing I mean. I like to watch some baseball and some basketball. Oh yeah. I love swimming a lot. Sometimes I do go to the health club to swim. 5.Religion? I was born Lutheran but I don't know if I really believe in anything. 6. What do you wear when you sleep? Huh? weird... I wear boxer shorts and a tee shirt. 7. How often do you masturbate? That depends. I never confessed to doing it at all to anyone before. But yeah I jerk off. Sometimes once a day sometimes three times a day. It depends. 8. What do you think about when you masturbate? Like I said, lately, some of the guys at my school fucking some of the girls at my school. I guess I do think about guys. I think about Orlando Bloom sometimes, you know the movie actor. 9. Have you ever had any kind of sexual experience? None with anyone else... ever. 10. When you are in the gym or locker room or showers or health club, do you ever look at the penises and ball bags of the other guys? Y-yes. Yes I do. That's very hard to admit. But shit... yes I do. all the time. 11. What is the best part of your body? Nothing. 12. What is the worst part of your body? I am a skinny runt and I am afraid my dick is small. 13. How would you like me to help you? I'd like to figure out who and what I am. I feel so fucked up sometimes. Can you get my head into a place where I know what to do and what I want? dale10: Martin, I was very very pleased and impressed with your honest answers. You are a fine young man and have nothing to worry about. I think you just need to work on your self-image a bit, and I can help with that. From your answers I would have to say you do sound like a faggot. I am using the word faggot because gay is such a clinical or political word. There is nothing wrong with being a faggot and nothing wrong with the world knowing it. I know right now you think you would die if anyone found out, that's why you can confide in me. But really, it's okay to be a faggot. You just need to accept and adjust your lifestyle accordingly so you can be happy. You do have to realize that in some ways straight boys and men are better than you. But only in some ways. Look at all the accomplishments faggots have made and all the things they have given the world. Of course sexually, faggots should learn to serve real men, as it is almost their duty and it is the only way they can lead a somewhat normal life. It would have been better for you if you had come to the realization you were a faggot earlier as you could have experimented with your sexuality and learned how to behave toward jocks and studs and straight guys. But don't worry. I can help you. Tell me, I am interested in the pic of you in seventh grade...were you jerking off then already? Lets talk about that on the instant messenger shall we as an initial discussion. messages: Martin: Hi, Im on now. Sorry for the delay but I wanted to wait until my ma left. dale10: Hi yourself. Martin I want you to be comfortable with me when we talk, so I'd like you to undress for me while we talk. Martin; You want me to sit at the computer naked? dale10: Come on, tell me you have never jerked off to sex stuff on the computer. You know you have. I thought you were going to be honest with me. I want us both to be totally open with each other. I am naked right now, and I'd like you to be too. Its perfectly safe, I can't see you can I? I never thought you'd be afraid of me. Martin: It's not that, its just that, it feels funny...okay...I'll strip down to my underwear. dale10:That's one of the first things I wanted to talk to you about. I want you to not wear underwear for a while when you are at home.. You need to get comfortable with your body...I want you to go around the house bare assed as much as possible. You are alone so there is nothing to fear. So slip out of those shorts, come on. I'll bet you any money you get a hard on. (pause) Martin: Okay...you win. On both counts. How do you know me so well. I am naked and I did spring a boner, I don't the fuck know why. dale10: That a boy. It's good to hear you relax and loosen up and talk like a real guy. You always sound so stiff and formal. its good to hear you use fuck words. So how the fuck are you doing Martin? Martin: Pretty good I guess. Shit...my dick is really hard now. It's so hard it hurts. That never happens. dale10:That's because you are being honest and trusting me and you are relaxed...even about your sexuality. Now tell me about that cute pic of you in the seventh grade. Can you remember ...were you jerking off then already? Martin: This is so weird. Why do you want to know about me when I was 12 so much? dale10: If you have some sexual confusion, that's probably when it started. I want to help you, so I need to know your sexual history, even if it is only limited to masturbation. So tell me... were you beating your meat at 12? Martin: Yeah...I was. A lot. dale10: So for the last four years the only sex you've had is fisting your own fuckmeat sometimes three times a day? Martin: I guess. dale10: I hate to say this, but it's time you had some real sex boy. You are way over due. Martin; I kissed girls and felt them up on dates and stuff. dale10: yeah but Martin, if you are a faggot, that doesn't count then does it? Now tell me when you were twelve... where did you jerk off most often, in bed at night, in the bathroom? Martin: I don't know why, but I am so sexually aroused talking about this. I'm scared, but I also love it. Anyway, I mostly jerked off in bed, into an old washcloth. dale10:Were you bare assed when you did it? Martin: Most of the time I, oh this is so freaky to tell you this... I'd pull my underpants down and then rub my dickhead on the sheet covering me, it felt so good, tickled and then I would pump it until I shot. dale10: That's a very normal way for boys to do it. And how do you do it now Martin? Martin: Now.. I strip and lay on my bed and sometimes look at magazines or my school year book and imagine stuff and jerk off that way. dale10:Do you look at guys in magazines and in your yearbook? Martin: I guess. dale10: I want you to do two things for me immediately to help yourself. First I want you to start sleeping bare assed naked. You have to get used to your body Martin and not be afraid. Secondly, I don't want you to cum until I tell you to. I know that sounds strange, but I want to test what kind of sexual balance and control you have. Can you do that, not cum until I tell you to? Martin: Geez, that depends on how long it is. I jerk off a lot now, like I said. dale10:That's what I want to test... your sexual control and power. It may determine what kind of future sexual life you will have. So I want you not to cum...but I want you to play with yourself a lot. I want to see how highly sexed we can get you to see if you have a normal sexual drive. I want you to get a hard on at least once an hour...every hour all day, but don't cum. Martin: How can I do that in school? dale10: You can play with yourself while you are sitting in class, rub yourself through your pants. And don't wear any underpants to school for now. You can do this for me Martin, I know you can. Who knows, you might even enjoy it. It will be something different from just jerking off every day. Try it...be brave. I want to help you. Martin: But if you want me to sleep bare-assed, rubbing against the sheets, I'm sure to shoot off at night. dale10:that's okay Martin. if it happens in your sleep, its normal, it's healthy. I just don't want you to bring yourself off. I want you aroused to test your endurance...but not depleted. A doctor might tell you to do the same thing if you had a sexual disorder. Martin: Do I have a sexual disorder? dale10: That's what we want to find out. Also anytime your mom is not home you are bare assed. I want you to get comfortable with your nudity. And while you do your homework at night, I want you to keep an erection for three hours every night. Martin: Come On!!! How can anyone keep a boner for three hours without shooting? dale10: Think of it as a challenge or test like on reality TV shows. Just touch your prick lightly and rub it gently to keep it hard and pulsing, but don't let yourself cum. There's a term for it Martin, it's called edging. some guys do it for sexual pleasure. We are doing it to see if you are healthy. Martin: My dick is so hard now I can hardly stand it. How can I go like this for days at a time, that's crazy. dale10: Do you want my help or not? do you want me to be your friend? Martin: yes sir. dale10: Then Do It! hard once an hour all day and three hours at night and no cumming. To give you some incentive, why don't we say, and you have to be totally honest with me, that if you cum accidentally, I have to punish you. How's that? Martin: I guess. dale10: That doesn't sound very encouraging. Martin : Okay, I'll do it. I'll try it. I can't promise I'll succeed, but I'll try. dale10 Good by, you'll find it very sexually exciting I know. Tell me by the way, when you jerked off bare assed in bed at twelve, did you ever play with or touch your asshole? Martin: Why? dale10: Did you? Did you ever stick a finger in? Martin: Yeah. dale10: That means you were probably a faggot already at 12 and just didn't know it. I'm looking at your 12- year-old picture now and seeing if I can see any signs of you being a faggot in your face. Sometimes you can tell cause a boy looks like a sissy boy. I think you probably look a little faggoty even at twelve. Well I gotta go... so don't cum until tomorrow and when we talk next... have a tape measure with you, I want to do some measurments. Oh and send me a couple more pics of yourself Ok? dale (If you want to see the pics of Martin, email me at maipenraikhap@msn.com) Continued... *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* The author does not condone child abuse, this story is meant as an erotic fantasy not real life. Anyone acting out such scenarios in "real life" can look forward to many unproductive years getting it up the butt by a fellow convict in their local prison. *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* Kristen's collection - Directory 25